she started to sing as she tackled the thing

Meredith Farkas says such nice things about me that I’ve had to spend the better part of the last few days keeping myself from repeating them, ad nauseum, to everyone I know. (I feel rather like the other lion at the end of The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe: “‘Us lions,’ he said, ‘us lions.’ That means him and MEEEEEE!”).

Dorothea Salo says things that are so true they hurt — though I mean that as a compliment. You get more points in this world for being pretty than for being truthful, and we ought to acknowledge that, unpleasant as it is. But it is true that if not for Dorothea and the goth cats, my knowledge of open access would be close to nonexistent. It’s also true that if Meredith (among other people) hadn’t responded so kindly to my first half a dozen or so idiotic questions about editing wikis, I might well be one of the people who goes around saying they can’t do wikis (or blogs, or cataloging, or whatever.

I do not generally get questions about how to become a rock star (in fact, I’m fairly sure I’ve never gotten one). Since I’m not particularly a rock star, this doesn’t bother me, although I will add, for the benefit of anyone hoping to glean such information from this little ditty, that moving to a town of 351 people is not really the best way to go about rockstardom. (Had I only thought to move to a town of 300 people, and acquire a coyote, and live in a cabin, and take beautiful photographs! Ah well.)

In the course of thinking about all these things, though, it has occurred to me that perhaps the way I go about things is a little peculiar. I am the branch manager of a tiny public/school library. Most of my day at work is spent reading book reviews, ordering books, helping patrons find stuff (mostly books), doing various interlibrary loan tasks, walking down to the post office to get the mail, organizing programs, submitting people’s timesheets, and trying to remember to schedule people to work on Wednesday nights. Now that I’m also (by self-declaration) the virtual branch manager, I do a little website maintenance and a little statistics gathering from databases and such, too. But there’s really very little call for me to know much about open access, or link resolvers, or college-level bibliographic instruction, or any of the other things that I spend time reading about almost every day.

There’s no call for me to know all of that as the Meeteetse librarian, it’s true, but I feel there’s plenty of call for me to know it simply as a librarian. I can’t advocate for net neutrality or open access as a member of my profession if I don’t know what they are or how they affect it. And, quite frankly, like Dorothea, I can’t imagine going through day by day without at least trying to learn something.

I’ve been lucky to have found myself a place where I can do some of that learning and a community of people who provide friendly encouragement and answer even the stupidest questions. This morning I started my new project, which is learning PHP. PHP is actually directly related to my job, in that I’m learning it in part in order to build a little application for the library. All I’ve managed to do so far is build a little form that captures a word you type in and redeploys it as part of a sentence. Not much, but it’s a start. And, thanks to the many people I know out there doing cool things, I felt that it was a start that I could make. My mantra in such projects is always, “Hey, if John Blyberg / Jessamyn West / other librarian rock star can do it well, then surely it’s worth it for me to do it poorly.” Or, as the godawful poem I learned in third grade put it,

Somebody said that it couldn’t be done
But he with a chuckle replied
That maybe it couldn’t, but he would be one
Who wouldn’t say so till he’d tried.

solidarity, virtually: my CiL2008

I’ve been watching Computers in Libraries (and Internet Librarian) from afar for three years now, starting with the OPML file Steve put together for CiL in 2006. I’ve watched the conference tags make it into Flickr’s hot tags list every year, and I’ve seen hundreds of sea lion photos from Monterey. I’ve read the complaints about internet access, read scores of blog posts about conference sessions, and I’ve watched attendees plan dinner dates via an ever-evovling series of technologies, from wikis to Twitter.

But there was something different about this year. Usually, as much as I love following the action, I get depressed looking at all the pictures of people having drinks and fun because I’m not there and I’m sure I’m missing out on things. This year, for some reason, I didn’t feel that way. Maybe it was the increased level of wifi that meant more people were Twittering. Maybe it was the back channel in the LSW Meebo Room. Maybe it was that I got to be at the conference by being in the LSW Room when Josh, Steve, and Rikhei were talking about it. Maybe it was that I got mentioned in that presentation. Maybe it was that at least one person I talked to via some medium thought I was at the conference. Whatever it was, though, it left me feeling as though I was in fact there, and today, it’s giving me that post-conference let down, where you suddenly realize that you have to take all your great ideas back home and deal with the 179 emails you’ve accumulated and the garbage you forgot to take out and making dinner instead of going out for sushi with your friends, and you’re exhausted because you haven’t slept much all week.

I’ve been trying to place the sense that I got while the conference was going on, and it finally dawned on me: it felt like the sit-in.

While we were at Weeg, we ran through Heidi’s e-mail accumulated over the past day, almost all of it from the USAS listserv. It’s not just us and Purdue, it’s all over–and spreading like wildfire. Kentucky, Tulane, Michigan, Oregon, Yale, Wesleyan–they’re all holding buidlings or camping out or hunger striking or something, and I know there are schools I’m forgetting. This movement is national, and though the national media haven’t picked up on it yet, we know it (thanks to the wonders of modern technology). But sitting there, reading all those posts from all over–somebody compiled all the letters asking for support and sent them out in one mass e-mail–we felt it. All over America right now people are sleeping, but some of those people–a critical mass of those people–are college students and supporters, camping out on lawns and in libraries, in hallways and on doorsteps, demanding change, demanding a voice, demanding a better world.

Well, not exactly like that, of course, but it had much the same energy, much the same silliness promanading with serious intent.

I’m happiest when I think I’m changing the world. I’m not certain that Information Today Inc. is changing the world, or not in exactly the ways I would like it to, but I’m certain that the people in the Library Society of the World are changing librarianship, and I like thinking that I’m a part of this amazing group of people who are all tinkering away in our own corners of the world. Someday I hope to meet more of you in person, but I think it’s a testament to the power of the intertubes that you all feel like comrades already.

2008 reading so far

Black Swan Green by David Mitchell — I read this on the recommendation of Steve Lawson, who had mentioned it being a good book and a dead-on portrait of being a kid in the early 1980s. I didn’t end up identifying so much with the protagonist, who is about thirteen and lives in a depressed, Thatcher-era village, although I couldn’t decide if that was because of a difference in gender and setting or if it was just that it was a little before my time. But, though the book didn’t give me the pleasure of recognition, it did give me the very great pleasure of watching a writer use language well–almost shockingly well at times.

Good Masters, Sweet Ladies! by Laura Amy Schlitz — The book that won the Newbery Medal this year. It’s essentially just what its subtitle says: voices from a medieval village, speaking in a series of interweaving monologues. It was written by a librarian for school children, and I have pressed it upon several teachers, because it’s pretty rare that you get something of literary quality that also fits so nicely in with classroom activities. That said, though, I wasn’t as blown away by it as many people seem to be, perhaps precisely because the usefulness grates on me.

Snow Falling on Cedars by David Guterson — The Meeteetse Museums are currently hosting an exhibit from the Smithsonian called Between Fences. We are the smallest town ever to host it, so it has been quite exciting, and we’ve had a full year of fence-related activities leading up to the exhibit’s opening last week. Among those is the “Between Fences” book discussion group sponsored by the Wyoming Humanities Council. This was the first book. Most people liked it. I felt more like I was reading a soap opera, albeit one with more diverse characters than one normally finds on daytime television.

Swallow the Ocean by Laura M. Flynn — A memoir about growing up with a mother with schizophrenia. I read almost anything that comes across my radar that deals with mental illness because at one point I was putting together an annontated bibliography of works about mental illness aimed at medical students and psychiatric residents (because, you know, they have so much spare reading time). Flynn’s book is fascinating as a portrait of an ill woman who refused treatment and who still managed to convince enough people that she was well that Flynn’s father had great difficulty getting custody of their daughters.

Animal Dreams by Barbara Kingsolver — I don’t actually really like Barbara Kingsolver, but since moving out here I’ve come to appreciate her books because they have people in them who do things like go to Nicaragua to help people do community agriculture. My world used to be full of that sort of thing, and sometimes I miss that constant background. I read about Animal Dreams in Jenna’s zine, so it seemed like the right one to pick.

The Tortilla Curtain by T.C. Boyle — The next book in the Between Fences discussion series. I read this a few years ago for my grandmother’s novel study group, and in rereading it, I noticed all sorts of patterns, since I was no longer concerned chiefly with the plot. My favorite pattern was tracing all the mentions of the words pilgrim and pilgrimage. That in turn led me to the OED, where I discoverd that one meaning was:

N. Amer. regional (chiefly west.) and colloq. (freq. depreciative). A recent immigrant, a tenderfoot; (of cattle) a newly imported or unseasoned animal. Now chiefly in weakened sense: a newcomer, a stranger.

I mentioned this during the discussion, and someone said, “Oh yeah, my dad always refered to people from out of town as pilgrims.” It’s so cool when the dictionary and real life mesh together.

The Alice Stories by Jesse Lee Kercheval — I’ve been reading Jesse Lee Kercheval’s stories and poems in literary journals for many years (although I never realized that she was a she, not a he), so it was a great pleasure to read this novel-in-stories. The main character is a woman who goes to graduate school and then teaches English in a community college in Madison, Wisconsin, and so it was also full of the traces of lives I used to live back when I was a graduate student and lived in a Midwestern college town.

The Senator’s Wife by Sue Miller — I don’t know why I enjoy reading Sue Miller’s books so much, but I always do. She’s kind of the quintessential women’s fiction writer (once, as I recall, referred to as the “doyenne of domesticity”), and I like a lot of things that fall into that genre. In any case, if you like her books, you’ll probably like this one, too. I remember someone complaining to me in high school that all of U2’s songs sound alike. That’s sort of true, but if you like the way they sound, that’s a good thing.

Someday This Pain Will Be Useful to You by Peter Cameron — You really can’t beat the title of this YA novel, which comes from Ovid. A lot of books get compared to The Catcher in the Rye (someone ought to do a study of this), and I have read a lot of them and been unmoved by the comparison, but in this case I think it’s valid. It has only the most superficial connections to Salinger’s book, plot-wise–young man in New York City mostly on his own–but the narrator’s quirks feel very Holden Caulfield-like–and that’s not a bad thing, in this case.

His Illegal Self by Peter Carey — I’ve never really thought I would like reading an e-book, but I had such a wish with this novel–particularly if it were an e-book with text that could be fiddled with with a text-editor so that I could put quotation marks around the dialogue.

My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult — When I am sick, I want melodrama, and so it seemed, when I got my yearly sinus infection, that it might be time to read one of these Jodi Picoult books that people are always checking out. It delivered. It even provides melodrama with different fonts for the different characters (again, I was wishing for a text editor). I wouldn’t recommend this as a book to read under normal circumstances, but when I was woozy with low-grade fever and cold medicine, it kept me occupied.

House of Sand and Fog by Andre Dubus III — The next in the Between Fences series and the one that I like best so far. It’s also the best example I’ve seen lately of a book described as tragic that actually is tragic in the literary sense–that is, it’s not just that bad things happen, it’s that bad things happen because otherwise good people make mistakes.

Her Last Death by Susanna Sonnenberg — This memoir read so much like an MFA project that I was suprised to learn that, although the author lives in Missoula, Montana, where there is a good nonfiction MFA program, she did not in fact attend it or any other MFA program. In any case, it’s a book about growing up with a mother who, had she not been rich, would, one imagines, be in the projects, or prison, and it’s written in vignettes, mostly chronologically, though it begins with the phone ringing in the author’s Montana home with the news that her mother is on her deathbed.

Trespass: Living on the Edge of the Promised Land by Amy Irvine — Three memoirs by women with difficult childhoods and/or lives are probably a few too many to have gotten in to the library in recent months, but I know they did all sound good. This one, though the least polished, was my favorite, in part because it deals with southern Utah, a place I love, and in part because it’s about how to figure out a way to belong to a place when circumstances conspire to keep you from it. The author was born and raised in Utah, which should have made residing in San Juan County fairly easy, but she was working for the Southern Utah Wilderness Alliance, which made her about as popular in the canyon country as a civil rights worker was in Mississippi in 1964. One of the many things people outside the West don’t seem to understand is just how hated environmentalists are here. This book might give you some idea–though it will also lead you through Mormon history and the world of the Anasazi and the cultures that preceded and followed them and a miscarriage and a birth and a whole lot else.